MaryLovesLife Ministries, Inc.
The Apostolic Ministry of Mary L'Esperance Held

Connecting Humanity to the
Aligning Spirit, Soul & Body with Identity & Destiny

Acts 20:22-24
"And see, now I go bound in the spirit to Jerusalem, not knowing the things that will happen to me there, except that the Holy Spirit testifies in every city, saying that chains and tribulations await me. But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."

Mary's Bio and Testimony

Mary L'Esperance Held is a passionate revivalist with a desire to communicate God's heart to the world and see the Body of Christ equipped for the end-time harvest. Through speaking and writing she utilizes her gifts of prophecy, encouragement and teaching to motivate the Body of Christ to live in Spirit-led, radical obedience to Jesus. This results in effective disciples who hear God's voice and respond in the moment with spontaneous Kingdom action.

With a focus on impacting the inner-city community outside the four walls, Mary's apostolic heart seeks to bring Heaven's culture to earth, helping people know their true identity as sons & daughters of a Loving Father, and able to walk in their designed destinies. 

Birthed from her heart of love for the poor, since 2005 she has been doing outreach in the City of Atlanta.  She has led teams into abandoned buildings and under bridges, lived in the inner-city with homeless addicted women, and provided case management, emergency housing and affordable housing to Atlanta's homeless.  But in 2015, the Lord began showing Mary the root of the homeless problem and how to "get to the heart of the matter."

As a result Mary's inner-city passion has shifted to reach "the emerging generation", to give them a Kingdom foundation so they can avoid the broken, homeless patterns later in life. Realizing that the root cause of many older homeless and addicted people can be traced to an unstable youth and lack of family, Mary now focuses on reaching inner-city youth, as well as young adults who came from foster care, group homes and broken homes. Mary and her team offer them a family and teach them the stability they have never known. 

Through discipleship, inner-healing and community outreach, the emerging generation is being restored to become the leaders of tomorrow, leading with a Kingdom mentality and further bringing a Kingdom culture to earth.


Mary is aligned in Kingdom family with these spiritual mothers and fathers:

As anyone who knew me 'back in the day' will remember, I loved to party. And I continued to well into my adult life. In spite of this, I managed to receive an Associate degree in Accounting. Once a working girl, it was a priority to plan frequent partying into my schedule. So not surprisingly, it was in a bar that I met the man I married.

We moved to Jacksonville, FL where we began climbing the corporate ladder and living the high life. Our determination for the material things of life and excessive night life did not give our personal relationship the priority it should have had and we drifted apart emotionally. I recall my mothers advice that we should go to church, but I refused her suggestion telling her it was the stupidest thing she could ever tell me. What could church do for me? I didn't need a crutch in my life. I didn't need to be like all those people who couldn't handle their lives. I could handle my own life (or so I thought). After 7 years of marriage and 2 years of Prozac & counseling, I chose to end the marriage.

Now alone in the big city (Jacksonville was big to me then), this small town girl believed she had it all. A great job, great friends and all the night life and attention she ever dreamed of. My preference had since turned from beer to Crown Royal whiskey and opportunities for drug use were presenting themselves frequently. Thankfully I was terrified of the stories I heard about cocaine and crack being so addictive, and I happily stayed with my fermented drug of choice. I had reached my end emotionally and was very depressed. It is nothing short of a miracle that I managed to keep my job and never get a DUI (or kill myself or someone else) despite the consistent heavy drinking and driving almost every night and every weekend. Although I never admitted it then, I was a functional alcoholic. Addicted not to the alcohol alone, but also to the club environment and everything that went with it. I sowed a lot of wild oats in the next few years, believing that one day the real Mr. Right wo-9uld come along and take my depression away.

Well He finally did... I received a mailer for a new church that had just started in a school gymnasium down the road from my home ( The pastor's picture looked like most of the people I partied with every night. It said "Church is fun, Contemporary music, Come as you are." Well this didn't sound like any church I had ever heard of. The only experience I had was dreading church as a child. We were not involved. But none the less, boring, lifeless attendance every Sunday was required. I don't think I ever saw anyone with a Bible.

But this new place sounded different... and by a complete act of God, I attended this church on January 31, 1999 and met Mr. Right (Jesus Christ) and was radically saved! (Saved from what? Click here.
) I walked out of that church a new creation! I wanted to tell the whole world about Jesus (and still do!) A fire was ignited inside of me that day and it has continually grown hotter ever since. That was the day I realized I was created for a purpose. I began to study the Word of God daily and have built a close and personal relationship with the Lord. I can't imagine where I'd be today without Jesus. I doubt I'd be alive. He truly is my everything. I will live the rest of my days worshipping Him, fully devoted to His purposes. 
Acts 9:6
"Lord, what do You want me to do?" NKJV

1 Tim 1:13-16 (Msg - paraphrased)
I’m so grateful to Christ Jesus for making me adequate to do this work.
He went out on a limb, you know, in trusting me with this ministry...
But I was treated mercifully because I didn’t know what I was doing...
Grace mixed with faith and love poured over me and into me - and all because of Jesus!
Here’s a word you can take to heart and depend on: 
Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. I’m proof! Public Sinner Number One!
...someone who could never have made it apart from sheer mercy. 
And now he shows me off (evidence of his endless patience) 
to those who are right on the edge of trusting him forever.